Dear Writing,

Source: poetrygrrrl.com via Stefanie on Pinterest

I have held you hostage long enough.

Used you as pawn to earn me a living and give me a following. This is not your purpose. It is not how our relationship began, and it will not be how it continues.

All these years, trying to make you mean something beyond what you naturally do, has finally allowed me to see you are too sacred for such highjacking.

I could blame it on the interenet, I suppose. Everyone here trying to get fans, likes, comments. Manipulating posts and tags and pictures to be the “hot” article of the day. But, what does it really mean?

There was a time I thought 20 views was a lot. Then, almost 600 was like—and…? Now, I’ve reached over 1200 on one, and I’m wondering, again, what does it mean—and when does it stop? Nothing. Never. 

It’s a circus out there. One I play with finally leaving behind. Do I want to write? Of course I do. And its time to go back to the basics. To make the work sacred again. Not to prosititue it for numbers and gains.

Do I want readers? Of course I do. But they will come or they will not without my using you. That is not why you are here. And honestly, I feel like keeping you hidden again—away from eyes. Maybe in this way, I can create something new. Reconnect with you again in the way I know is true.

You are like breath. Always have been. When I want to tell someone how I feel, I don’t knock on their door or call on the phone, I take out a pen and I open to a blank page. I write. It’s what I do.

You are whispering to me, reminding me of who and what you are. I’m listening—to you only. Not to the numbers. Or the web. Or voices out there or inside who manipulate for more views. I will listen, and I will write. Just simply write.

The Soul Reporter

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2 thoughts on “Dear Writing,

  1. This is a powerful piece. I’ve written in my journal since I was 11. I’m at a place where I’m wondering what I want and need to “do” with writing. This was illuminating. Thank you for sharing it and ironically your not keeping it private has given me food for thought.

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